To L,
It’s still very recently that you said you weren’t ready for a relationship. I’m still very much recovering & taking it day-by-day.
As someone who was in a committed relationship for a few years previously and didn’t necessarily want anything long term initially, you completely managed to change my mind in the few weeks we got to know each other.
You wanted me, you were attractive, caring and always there for me. I thought you took it too fast and wouldn’t leave me alone, and I told you this. But I went along with it because you gave me something I was completely unfamiliar with. You actually wanted me and I felt that. I saw it in your eyes every time we met up, the way your eyes dilated as you’d stare into my soul.
When I decided to call your bluff and organise stuff together though, you’d flake or find an excuse to cancel.
Just as I felt myself falling for you and considering if we had a future together, you of the blue decided you “weren’t ready” after only an evening of not speaking as I was out having fun with my friends.
This crushed me & I had to cut contact.
I’m writing this now to say whilst I’m still hurting every day, I’m getting better. The connection I felt with you was more than I’ve experienced in a long time and I’m grateful for those few perfect dates.
The universe will allow us to cross paths once again “naturally” if we truly were supposed to be together. But for now, I hope you become the person you’ve always want to be and always remember the fun we had.
I appreciate you,
M