I’m at a loss for words.. I still love you. After everything that you’ve done I can’t seem to let you go. It’s partially my fault since I allow this to occur. But how can I say no to the person who makes me the happiest? And I know you still love me too. I still don’t understand the full reason on why we ended, you still treat me the same. You’re honestly so confusing. You do things that make me think that you’re over us and this relationship, but follow up with calling me every night and talking about our future. I don’t even know what we are.

I don’t want to be just an option to you and you’ve reassured me that im not and that I would always be someone special to you. I can’t believe its been five years.. Back then I never would have thought that you would become someone so special to me. You have a way of capturing my heart and taking me in to the point where all I want to do is love you and bring you happiness because that on its own would make me happy. Your happiness is so important to me…. This is so difficult. I never would have imagined being able to love another individual in this manner. I wish you could just understand me and why I am the way I am with you. I could hear you snoring on the phone right now. Sigh.. What is this that we are doing. Why are you doing this to me. Why am I alowing this to continue. You are so specia and so important to me. I honestly don’t know what I would do without you… You are. My best friend. I’m madly in ove with my best friend and I don’t know how to stop loving you. I’m pretty sure I never will. You are much a part of me that I’ve forgot  how it is to be me with out you in my life. I love you mi amor. Always and forever…