Ben,
Well it’s been over a week since you walked out of my life, I was really shocked to receive a call from you last night. I said hello and the first thing that came out of you was DO YOU MISS ME, and I told you yes. I know this isn’t a game you were my heart, my best friend my everything. How am I suppose to live without my heart. I don’t understand our relationship. Sometimes, we’re friends. Sometimes, we’re more then friends. Other times, I’m just a stranger to you. we been together for 2 years. And I cant for the life of me understand how you could walk away like I meant nothing or our relationship never meant anything at all. I understand that I hurt you and broke your heart cause I didn’t treat you right and I didn’t realize that you truly loved me. I know that I don’t deserve anything from you, but I can only hope that you’ll read these words, knowing that I mean every one of them. i am truly, truly sorry for what I did to you. I know you are hurting now, and I know that’s all because of me. I promised that I would never hurt you. I regret nothing more in life than what I have done to you. It was wrong, stupid and immature and you do not deserve any of the grief and anger I have caused you.I can’t bear to see you unhappy because of my actions. When our relationship began, I promised I would leave our first break up behide me. I failed. I failed both of us. But I want to make amends. I truly do. You’re too important of a person to lose and I hate myself for realizing that now rather than earlier. I understand the gravity of the situation, and I hope that you can find it in your heart to forgive me. I love you with all my heart i really do

I want to apologize, I made a lot of bad choices I should never of got back involved with drugs and drinking again it totally change me into someone I didn’t even know and let alone someone you could love I feel deeply sorry but I will never deny or lie about what is going on with me or what am doing and I will never lie about were the money went I will for now on make sure I tell you what I need and what I spent any money on and I will for now on let you hold all the money and if I need anything ill ask you I know what I did was wrong. But I want you to give me another chance to show you am sober and I want to change me and are relationship into something you could be proud of but now it’s two late your gone and never coming back. I’m in treatment and am going to prove how bad I want this sober life I wish you were still by my side

Between you and me there is great love, and if I am with you again I assure you I won’t disappoint you ever. You are upset and you have all the reason in the world to be like that, but now I’m recognizing that I was wrong so maybe ours relationship will grow into something your proud of. We have had a lot of adversity and this is something we can fix. I will do everything to earn your love again. I want to be by your side to show you that my love is true, I love you Ben and I hope you can think about what I wrote.

Love always,
Colinna