Akala ko wala na. Akala ko tapos na.

Akala ko sapat na. Akala ko hindi na babalik pa.

Akala ko lang pala.

I thought moving on was enough to forget everything about you– everything about us. I thought not thinking about you is more than enough for me to forget how I feel towards you.

But then I was wrong.

I never thought that our simple conversations would bring back good old memories and almost-forgotten-special-feelings.

I never thought that by simply thinking about you, I’m putting my feet six feet below the ground as it pains me to death knowing that you could care less.

Now I understand why you keep on pushing me away- now I know why you always ditch the idea of us seeing each other again.

A cup of coffee wouldn’t bring back my feelings towards you- a sausage muffin would.

A simple joke cracked during a small talk won’t make any sense- your smile and your response to it would.

A simple hello wouldn’t mean a thing if it came from me- by you saying it, I think it would.

See how much you matter? See how my world revolves around you?

That’s how cruel life could be. You’d try so hard to forget someone for months and years; and when you know you are already living a happy life, these small things would make you feel that you aren’t even almost there.

This is BS. And so this love affair.