Dearest L,
I like to start by saying how sorry and regretful I am that I hurt you by the things I said 18 years ago.I love you then and I still feel a great love for you today. I said those things out of duress of the situation, the distance of our relationship, and my own shortcomings in dealing with my emotions.I’m very happy for you to see you got everything you deserve and wanted in life.I never doubted you always believed in you I just didn’t believe in myself.I’m a better man for having known you. I’ve missed you in all the beautiful times great places I have been in my life. I just hope you can forgive me and remember the good love we had. I never had another love as strong as yours,it truly could change ordinary in the great.thank you all the love.
RC
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RC,
Your letter was deeply moving and I found myself weeping because I know how you feel. Loving someone is like opening up the “home” of your heart to that person. I loved someone and like a house with many rooms, opened up the home of my heart to him. He brought out this side of me, vulnerable, that I could be myself, emotionally, without being criticized. He occupied all my rooms, and I thought of him cognitively, physically and socioemotionally. He had “occupied” all my hopes, dreams, and the deepest recesses of my soul. When he broke up with me my “rooms” crumbled in my heart and I wept. I sobbed. I cried and cried.
He was my first love, many years ago. And then I met someone and fell in love with him and had that same feeling. But I hurt him deeply and feel really bad. I don’t think that I am worthy of forgiveness…but hope that one day he will understand. Because of him I’m a better person and know what I want in life. He saw the best in me that I never saw. I still love him…
It is beautiful to have been kissed by a butterfly, to find yourself changing, like a caterpillar to a butterfly for the better. All because of that beautiful person.
All the best,
College Student
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