I know you will most likely never see this, which actually really drives me crazy, but I am doing the best I can in this situation. I also know that doing this in the first place is a bad idea, and you would be happier never hearing from me again. But I need to apologize. Someone told me you were engaged now, which made me kind of sad at first, but I have spent a lot of time thinking about it and I’m really happy for you. I know this is what you wanted. And it doesn’t change the fact that I need to apologize to you.

You were right, I treated you badly. I know you may not agree, but I am really glad you were my first girlfriend, and that I could spend those two years with you. I have had so much time to think about the times I lost my temper with you and I’m thinking more…clearly now. I should have been a better boyfriend to you. You treated me amazingly and took care of me when I needed it, so thank you. I still have growing up to do, and you have helped through a lot. So I’m sorry for being an asshole to you all those times, and I’m sorry for being obsessive when we broke up.

It’s taken me a long time to look on things from a more level head and realize that I was wrong. So I’m sorry for everything, and hope that eventually you can hear my name and not feel disdain for me. More than that I hope you will read this one day.