I’m sorry. I’m sorry for being too clingy and overbearing at times. I wish I could have been a girlfriend that allowed you space to be with friends and other people. I understand that you have other friends, even some that are girls. I guess I was so clingy because I was afraid to lose you like I have lost everyone else.

I have low self esteem and don’t tend to love myself like I should. I wish I could get over this and realize that you really did love me. And I still think you do… but that isn’t my call. Whenever we talked I felt this connection that I hadn’t felt with anyone else. I have been used and tossed to the side so I cling to people to make sure that they know I love them, but clearly you already knew.

I can’t think of the word for how I feel right now, but I think you probably feel the same. I see how you look at me in school and I know that you still miss the old me from October. I miss her too. I am not sure what happened to her. I lost my best friend because of who I changed into and I lost you.. I knew about the hardships in your life and I wanted to be there for you whenever I could be.

I’m really sorry that I was super clingy and immature as you would put it. You are more grown up then me, even though you are two years younger, but you made me want to grow up and become a successful person. I hope that maybe one day we can be friends. I’m sorry for all the additional stress I put on you.