Tim,

I stuck by you. I supported you. I tried my very best to be there for you.

You lied to me. You lied to my face and you lied by omission.

You refused to treat me like a partner, you showed me up publicly, you held to to impossible double standards.

You hit me.

You hit me again. Publicly at an event that I hosted.

I wish that I could deal with this betrayal but I can’t. I wish to deal with it, not to have you back, but to stop myself from being consumed by the horrible feelings you have caused me.

You once told me that I had no self respect. Do you? Your actions were despicable but you still want to be a lawyer?

You play the victim as if you’re losing life’s great game but I’ve news for you; now it’s your doing. You may once have born the weight of other peoples’ actions but you refuse to hold yourself to account.

Words cannot express the true extent of my feelings. I wish I could say I bore you no ill will but that is a lie. I wish you nothing but the pain and distress that I suffered on and off throughout our relationship. I cannot be a bigger person right now. Maybe one day I can be.

So I’ll go on seeing you at our events, seeing you smirk and talk about me to your friends, watch you try and provoke me but I will tell you one thing; it is not love nor lust that is in my eyes but disgust at the appalling way I have let you treat myself and others and pity for your delusions.

You deserve nothing and until you get over your sense of entitlement and treat people with respect you will continue to deserve nothing.

I hope for your own benefit that you can one day see your behaviour for what it has been. Then maybe you can start on the road to happiness.

Perhaps one day we can talk but for now don’t let your temper get the better of you. It isn’t worth it in the long run.

Formerly yours,

Alex.