Dear Edwin,

I always dreamed of that prince that would sweep me off my feet and tell me how much he loved me. When you entered in my life not only did you sweep my feet but you promised that I would never cry, that my tears would be of joy and never sorrow. As the new seasons came and went we were given countless blessings bestowed upon us. As the years went the hope and blessing of children never came. IVF, painful procedures and countless hours with doctors. Prayers and radical medicinal from the family elders, going on vacations to relax hoping this will do it… relax.

Tenth year, I find out you are having a cocaine and drinking problem. Taking you to doctors to get help counseling never reached you. Tears, tears aburned my face. I dont recognize you my prince where are you? I’m crying, are these tears…?  OMG 14 years now no hope for a family, my love… my prince is slipping away. Drugs and alcohol waiting for your spirit everyday. Nights with out you by my side thinking will you come home? Are you alive? My prince, we lost our house were homeless im tortured, my castle is gone. I stood by your side. finally a resting place were we can call home. But you never cared it was not yours. So again in darkness alone in the dark. My tears made me think about suicide. God spoke to me and said get out. I left you and beg you and told you I loved you but you were not there, just a blank empty look of the man I adored. Then two weeks later I find out you have a 6 year old daughter and one in the way with someone who told me you belong to her that you love her and you were her prince. I cried and I cried and I suffered so much. I park across your new home and see you play with your kids, my tears slowly slipping down my face. I dont wish you joy, i dont wish you happiness, I dont forgive you. I just wished I knew of the pain you would cause me. I loved you with every beat of my heart, you made me cry and never once apologized.

MY PRINCE ILL NEVER CRY AGAIN FOR ANYONE ELSE YOU TOOK EVERY TEAR AND I STAND HERE WONDERING WHY?

I WILL NEVER BELIEVE IN LOVE, IN A PRINCE AND BE HAPPY…. THE PAIN WILL NEVER LEAVE. I HOPE YOUR HAPPY TO SEE ME NOT BREATH.

       I ADORED YOU,

             CARMEN