How did this happen? From being together to purposely hurting each other within days.  I asked you a simple question to which everything blew out of proportion. I know you’re not one to speak the truth or at least what you actually feel but you always knew enough to know what was on my mind. You knew I was an insecure person when you met me so naturally I always questioned everything. I know now that I was right to do so. I told you at the start that it wasn’t for me, yet you said you wanted it to work. If this wasn’t true, then why make it last for so long?

I waited for you, I was happy, wanting to be with you, thinking you were right for me. I’ve seen that you’re softer than you make out; you get scared watching a flood on tv… So I doubt you’re the type to invest the first 5 months for a bang.  You made it the hardest year for me but somehow still made me fall for you whilst I get the impression you were playing games. I tried to move on when you were ‘done’ but I’ve told you I couldn’t and I came back to you. I doubt I’ll ever get a full explanation for what happened and that I’ll ever be able to tell you certain things either. We are both as much in the wrong and at times were toxic for each other but for some reason I’ll always love you as much as I did the first time I saw you. I don’t and can’t resent you for what I think you did; at least without knowing the truth.