Evan,

This might not be necessary but we both know I’m too stubborn for my own good.

I’ve had a lot of time to think about myself, you, and us. And even thought I’m not sure about a lot of times. I am sure about this; The way we think about things isn’t different. No matter how hard you try to convince yourself, on some level you know that we have always wanted the same things from life and each other. Our approaches and actions might have been different but our opinions, intentions and thoughts never were. I have never thought we were perfect we are both so young, too young to settle down, but I have always looked at you as someone I wanted to be with.

I entered this relationship with the best thoughts, feelings, and intentions. With that being said I do blame myself for the things I did wrong, I am so ashamed and sorry. I don’t blame you for the mistakes you’ve made, but I do believe it takes two to tango.

We both know I’ve never been very practical but there is a thin line between being hopeful and being naive. There is also a thin line between being romantic and being a fool. But to this day, I never regret falling in love with you or fighting for this relationship. You are the most wonderful person that I’ve met.

Disappointments and misunderstandings are as much a part of relationships as the amazing moments are. What we had was great. The understanding, the compassion, the chemistry, was all there. I’ve never met anyone that I get along with as well as I do with you. I see so much potential in us, to me this is worth it. Every situation in life can be resolved with an honest effort to work towards a solution.

I always felt that you’ve wanted this to work, even if it’s just a small part of you. inside your heart, you’re as emotional as I am. I think that a lot of the time you don’t want to show me, or anyone that.

People meet for a reason. Meetings aren’t random, and I’ve always said that us meeting was fate. We met because we’re meant to be a part of each other’s lives, each other’s journey. I may not know why, you may not know why, but there was a reason we met. Our paths crossed so we could learn and grow and I learned a lot from you. You’ve always made me feel amazing, loved in every moment. I was always proud to stand beside you. You are truly amazing and for that reason I hope there is never a time that you feel as helpless as I have. Every day I felt as if my soul had died, it really killed me.

I can’t thank you enough for being a part of some of the most amazing moments in my life. I wish things were different but some things in life are just not meant to be. Only time will tell. Through this whole thing I’ve told myself “you don’t give up on someone you love” but this isn’t a me giving up. I’ll never give up on you, or us. Im sorry if you feel like you wasted 21 months with me. You’ll always be on my mind, in my thoughts and in my heart. I’ll always love you, and you’ll always hold a part of my heart.

Xoxoxo

Ps. I was really offended that you wanted to sleep with me, but not commit. But I’m even more annoyed that you don’t want to sleep with me now. Seriously dude wtf?