Dearest D,
I still think about you, I still have feelings for you, I still get jealous when I hear things about you, I still love you, I still hate you, I still want to speak with you, I still don’t, I still want to see you, I still never want to see you again, I still believe you have feelings for me, I still think that’s just me convincing myself of things sparking up again, I still don’t understand what happened and why, I still think you’re perfect, I still think you’re imperfect, I still think we could’ve had the life we planned, I still think you gave up too soon, I still think we both deserve better, but I still think we deserve each other, I still think you underestimate me, I still think you believe in me, I still think you lost faith in me, I still think you are the only woman who will ever love me like you did, I still think I won’t love anyone like I did you, but I still think I’ll find someone one day, I still think I’ll move on completely one day, I still think I’ll never forget you, I still think a small piece of my heart belongs to you and always will, but I still think I want it back, but sometimes I don’t, I still think we will be together again, I still think that will never happen, I still think you love me even though you said you don’t, and I still think that is just me in denial, I still think after all this time I’ve avoided dealing with this, I still think I have a long way to go, I still think I need you, I still think I want you, I still think I don’t, I still think you’re the one for me, I still think you couldn’t be more wrong for me, I still think….and that is the problem…I still think.
A
4 Comments
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I’m right here & have always been. I understand why your like this & I love you & am here for you. Darling your in so much pain.
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Hello A, I’ve come back to this “Letter to My Ex” many times. You summed up my experience exactly, except My Ex is a man and I have no news about him so I cannot get jealous (but my imagination is jealous anyway). I thank you for writing this, with all the commas and the conclusion about stopping thinking. If I could just stop thinking, or more accurately, if I could just stop believing all these painful thoughts. I wish I cared as much about myself and my job as I did about him and our lost relationship. Good luck, A. Thank you for sharing yourself the way you did.
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Dear A, StellaBlue again….The other thing I love about this letter is that I believe my Ex (the man) could have written this about me. Except I never said I didn’t love him. I love him. And he doesn’t know anything about me (so he cannot be jealous) because we’re not in contact with each other and have no common friends. Anyway, I think if I had to vote – I would vote this my favorite letter that I’ve read on this site (except maybe mine which comes with the hope he might see it someday). Thanks for writing this letter to D.
P.S. The first comment from David makes no sense. This letter is written to a woman (not to a David). You could be male or female, doesn’t matter, but you clearly state D is a woman.
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To StellaBlue, thank you so much for your kind comments. I am glad you enjoyed my letter and were able to take something from it. Thank you for sharing your feelings, I hope you are doing well and enjoying life 🙂
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