I truly regret how we parted. Writing here eases my pain.

The most difficult thing, is that you never told me why you left. We spent nearly a year together, and yet I was more in love with you than I have been with anybody else. Your kindness and thoughtfulness, together with how great it felt when we were together, made me fall hard. Everything was romantic. When we were looking at each other, it felt like heaven.

All my life has fallen apart since. I had decided to take a permanent job I knew I would not like, but staying in this city with you was enough to make me happy. I was far from imagining what would happen. I still wonder: was the time we spent together real? Were you true to me? did you hide another personality side from me? Everything was perfect and everything fell apart. You never wanted to explain why you left me. It hurts a lot you know. Its been five years, and I have not been able to build something with anyone since. I need to know why, before the questions I still have fully consume me. I hope one day you can explain it to me.