It’s been a while and I thought I was healed. You completely ignoring my existence, packing up and moving across the world to be with my replacement all seems to have had no to little affect on me. I was finally free of the hurt your lying and cheating had on me, well so I thought.

Last night you broke my heart again, this time the pain feels worse. You probably think I’m crazy, how could you have broken my heart again, I mean we have no contact and you half way around the world. Let me explain, a cheater does not simply break their victims heart when they cheat, they break it every time their victim fearfully turns down the opportunity to give their heart to another. My heart, although it begs to love the most amazing guy, who unlike you, wants to rearrange his life, move across the world to be with me. He simply wants the opportunity to love me, but I can’t allow that. Although my heart yearns for him since the day he left 4months ago my brain won’t allow it. Every time he begs me to give us a chance my heart skips a beat at the amazing future we could have. My head then steps in and reminds me of you and how love had failed me before.

I can’t give him a chance and every time I say no to him, know that you are breaking my heart again along with his. I hope while you enjoying your life with your new found love that every now again you think of me unable to love because of your selfish choices.