I don’t hate you. I don’t hate your new girlfriend. Sure, it’s been a month since things ended and you swore a week ago that you weren’t looking for anyone but I realize that was a lie like the rest of the things you’ve been telling me. Out of everything, I’m mad at myself. I’m mad that I let you inside when you were far from me. I regret every single day, not walking away like I should have. My friends, parents, coworkers, even your own mom, told me to run. I didn’t listen and here I am, mad at myself. Those people, with the exception of your mom, didn’t know you. They didn’t know your touch, your laugh, our jokes. They knew of you. But they didn’t know you. I left to go 800 miles away on vacation and I trusted you. Just to find that our relationship was a joke. You went out with someone you swore that you never liked. You went to her house. You slept with her and didn’t say a word. You let me come home thinking everything was fine. You let me sleep with you right after that. You let me fall more into your lies day by day. You said you woke up one day and realized you didn’t want a relationship but reality is you didn’t want me. I didn’t understand but I put it together. You kept going back and forth to these bars. I realized now you were seeing the girl you cheated on me with and your new girlfriend. Like I said, I’m not mad at you. I’m mad at myself. I’m so mad that I didn’t listen. I’m mad that I made myself look like a fool for you. But believe me, I am coming back stronger. You taught me so much. You taught me love is a word that guys like you will say so us girls will go to bed with you. You taught me that any guy who would steal and put his hands on me over some money never loved me. You taught me that I was naive to think you meant everything you said, your plans of us one day. I hope your new girl can handle it. I hope she can handle the lies. I hope she can handle the fights. I hope she can handle you. Because I know that road is a tough one to go down. And I would never want her to feel as dumb as I do. But most importantly, you taught me that I can do this on my own and one day you’ll be crawling back just to find that I will never be there again.