Elise,
I am not even sure what I want to say. I guess I’ll just type whatever comes to mind.
We were so in love. You cannot deny that. No matter how hard you want to tell yourself it wasn’t the case, you can’t lie to yourself and say that we weren’t lovebirds. We couldn’t get enough of each other. We told each other everything. We know each others deepest and darkest secrets. We know things about each other that none of our other friends know.
Neither of us can deny that when we were together, life was perfect. You said on many occasions how the time we spent together at SG was the best four months of your life. You also told me that one day we spent together in Vermont was the best day of your life. No matter how hard you want to convince yourself that it is not true, you know it is.
I learned so much during our time together. I learned what love truly was. You learned what love truly was. Between the hour upon hour long FaceTime calls, the good morning and good night texts, and everything in between. I also, unfortunately, learned what being heartbroken feels like. It feels like getting punched in the gut, over and over. It is the worst feeling in the world, I can guarantee that.
I did so much for you. I drove thousands of miles, flew thousands of miles, and loss days worth of sleep for you. I spent those eight months of my life doing my very best to make you as happy as can be.
I really don’t understand how you are not appreciative of all I did for you. I don’t understand how you never gave me a chance when you dumped me, seemingly out of the blue. I also don’t understand after how much we went through together, you wasted no time finding other guys to get with. It’s like we were never together. I have all the reasons in the world to be angry. I could have yelled and argued and bitched. But I didn’t.
I know over this last month you have had regrets about your decision. It is not possible to have no regrets about ending everything we had been through on the dime. I hope you one day realize how much I did for you. I hope one day you realize that we were so compatible. I hope one day you realize that you will never find someone who did as much for you as I did.
We never fought. We never had arguments. All we had was love, and all of a sudden, in the middle of September, it ended. It doesn’t make sense, but I guess things in life don’t make sense. Life is unfair, and so I have learned.