dear syren…
i first wanna say that I’m sorry .. for not cherishing every single moment with you… for making you scared that you would lose me on the nights my depression got to me and it felt like you couldn’t do anything to help me. but now that’s its been a year that we have not been not together, I’ve realized how much i miss treated you .. i should have never been sad when i had you in my arms and i realized that sooner than later.

I’m still so happy we are friends, but there are some nights where i wish id never promised you id stay, because being around you every day kills me inside, being your only “friend” makes me hurt and numb. knowing that’s ill ever be to you is a friend hurts me everytime i think about it, because every time i look in those beautiful eyes you have and that smile you give me, hurts each time.

you where one in a million to me, and i know ill never find anyone quite like you and i will miss that so much, like the way you bite your lip when your focus on something or when you think something’s funny and you laugh and blush and look away, all these little things will be the things ill miss so much.
some people still think i was crazy for trying to get you to see what they saw, but you are so blind that you can’t see it , but now that I’ve finally given up because I’m mentally and physically hurting myself, i hope you don’t come running back again because then id have to say no …
This love wasn’t healthy for me, and now I’m moving on because i now know whats best for my health and wellbeing, and even though we only dated two weeks, i will miss …ever.single.thing. about you.. you will always be in my heart. i love you … but its time for me to let go and be your friend and friend is where i’ll always will be.
love michael <3