To the man that I loved the most but I chose to leave him,

I know you left not because you don’t love me, you left not because i weren’t enough, you left not because you wasn’t contented, you left not because you don’t want to be with me, but because this relationship isn’t right, we both know this is wrong, but you and I chose to continue it, but at this point I just realized that we are in a perilous situation, thinking what we had makes me feel unsafe, unlove, scorn. Letting you go isn’t that easy as I thought, letting you be with her tears my heart into million pieces, letting you be happy without me kills me inside, but I have to, I am the only one who’s strong enough to face that there is something wrong of what we have, I have to face the reality that we shouldn’t be together,that we’re better off with each other, for what we had is getting more and more suffocating and toxic. I just figured out many things like I don’t deserve to be your second choice, your third party, your diversion even tho you said you love me more than her, still it wasn’t right, I don’t want to settle for less I AM GOD’S PRINCESS. Now I have to correct my wrong doings and it includes leaving you, I don’t feel any regrets of what we had and did, because it once made me happy, you once made me feel like you really love me when in fact I know it wasn’t really love. I loved you so much to the point that break many rules and be your option, because of loving you so much I’ve lost the girl that once was happy, carefree and loving she was gone, I am lost, and now I have to find her, I miss her, I miss myself. Thank you for the things that I learned from you, thank you for making me this strong woman, thank you for the stolen moments that we stole behind closed doors, thank you for making me realized I don’t deserve any of this, thank you.

Letting go of someone who means the world to you is not easy, but if you look in the brighter side it makes you strong and independent, don’t loose your self-love, respect, and dignity because of a toxic and wrong relationship, because in the end only yourself is there for you, no one will.

To zildjian
Thank you for everything, thank you for once you made me happy this much and at the same time you transformed me into a lady that now values herself more, love herself more, dignified and respected. I know someday our paths will cross again and I’d be happy to see you happy with her, I love you so much that I chose to correct our wrong doings, till next life loves.