Dear Logan,

They say heartbreaks aren’t easy. It’s true, it’s not. I fell hard for you. We had a relationship where we both knew it wouldn’t work. I think that’s why we did it anyways. We had fun. We connected. I’m glad we did. You’re a great person. But then we faced the reality. The reality of the impossibility of our relationship. Reality hit you first. But reality didn’t hit me, it was you. I didn’t want to love you. I didn’t want to be all by myself. I became dependant. You were my missing confidence.
I knew you were going to leave me. I didn’t want to. I tried forcing something that wasn’t there, trying to force a dream. But you can’t force dreams. They need to come to you. I didn’t want to face reality. You already did. You figured out what you wanted. You used me to figure out what you wanted. You used me to figure out yourself. I forgive you for that.
I can’t get over you. I want to. But there’s a part of me, which I cannot identify, that won’t let me move on. I heard you have. I tried dating. But you see, when I’m with him, I am thinking of you and what would do.
This letter is to help me. This letter is to find myself. This letter is me moving on.
Thanks to this letter, I have now realized that you used me. You see, you figured out what you wanted. You knew I was attached and would do anything for you. You used me for yourself. Until, you realized I was being hurt.
And I knew that. I chose to refuse it. This is why I couldn’t move on. It’s not that I couldn’t forgive you, it’s that I couldn’t forgive myself. I couldn’t forgive myself from being used consciously.
Thanks to this letter, I know why.
Thanks to this letter, I can move on.
Thanks to this letter, I moved on.
It was a real pleasure.
Thank you, Logan.

Megan