dear ( ),

Words can’t explain how terrified I’ve been to write you this, but i feel like it can’t hurt, Can it? Well, we’ll see. I just want you to know how i completely feel. The last thing i want is to come across your mind as needy and desperate. ( But that’s not the Case ) Is Just My heart speaking

Looking back now i see how wrong i was and how lucky i could’ve been to actually keep you and take you seriously, at least in moments i see that. Looking back now i realize how wrong i really did you. I’m writing this letter not so that you can see it but because i want people to understand for the “players” point of view.

When we first started talking we only talked for four days until we became a real official thing. We fell fast and hard for each other. But us falling so fast for something that was so real and perfect couldn’t last,because nothing so good can last forever. Weeks in and i was so in love the only real love i’ve ever felt in my life and it came from you. And i couldn’t possibly ever thank you enough for showing me what love really is. Because you’ve been the only one to show me that, not even family or friends have shown me the love i experienced with you.

Two months went by and it was the best two months i’ve experienced in my life. i was happy. Happiness i couldn’t explain. But then by the fifth month something went wrong.Only i don’t know what it was that made me switch up on you like i did. My closest friend asks me what happened to have me switch up on you and i still don’t know what happened. Maybe we were just too perfect. Maybe i was just overwhelmed. I really just don’t know.

But soon i was finding something to argue about every day. and things weren’t all so perfect anymore. You treated me like a queen there was nothing you wouldn’t do for me. I could talk about anything with you and you’d be there. You treated me the way any girl would dream of being treated. But i continued to treat you like shit. i put you through so much. so many lies so much drama and so much heartache. And i know your love for me was the realist thing there could possibly be. Because no one goes through as much as i put you through and still be 100% loving to that person.

I would threaten to leave you day in and day out. i never did actually leave you because i still wanted our perfect first two months back. But in my search to get back to perfect with you all i did was hurt you and our past perfection even more.

If you decide to open up your heart to me again, you will benefit from my improved personal standards which can only serve to elevate this relationship from the emotional state in which it seems to have found itself in. Every second we’ve been apart, every word, action and thought that has ever been spoken or passed, has travelled thru the depths of my mind And it makes me a better person everyday. I guess what I’m trying to say is that, look its not a need or neccesity to have you back, but its a choice instead to want to be with you again.