Thank you L,

Our break up became the spark necessary to start my journey towards personal growth. I may have never taken the risk to start this without your help. I trust that our time together has helped you reach new heights as well. Your last gift to me was the ability to self-love; something that no one has been able to give me, including myself. In your absence, I have grown to become someone that I can adore and love. Our relationship may be over but the love we once shared will be eternal. I will remember in moments of growth and matriculation that this is where our love now expresses itself. They say you truly don’t miss what you have until its gone. I can’t tell you how much truth there is behind this saying. Dear, you will always be my first love and I won’t forget that. You made me the adult I am today. I could not forget us even after there were no more photos or physical reminder left. Our memories have since been engraved into my very being. To forget them would be forgetting parts of myself. L, I fell in love with all of those things that made you so beautifully you. Thank you for it all; for the love, for the hurt, the late-night cravings, the beautiful stories, the communication, the insecurities, the expressive determination, the food-ventures, the friendship, the openness, the experiences shared, the motivation, the growth, the companionship, and the final push. Thank you for being my best friend for so long. I am so proud of you and wish you the utmost success in your medical school journey. I know that you will be an amazing doctor regardless of the specialty you choose. This was my first heartbreak, I hope you can forgive the way I reacted. L, you and I were young and foolishly in love; the only commitment you needed to make was to yourself. There were too much uncertainty and inexperience plaguing your life. In hindsight, I can see that you were not ready to be at this stage of the relationship. It was unrealistic to me to be your safety blanket for so long. Perhaps, I was too naive and optimistic to see that we were holding each other back. Thank you for realizing that you could never love me the way you felt I deserved. I finally understand your decision to let us go in order to focus on yourself. It’s ok to be single and explore your options. L, I trust you will choose someone that respects you and makes you happy. There are no more hard feelings or bitterness. Truthfully, I have forgiven and forgotten any hurt I held on to. The last thing I could do for you was to go into no contact; it was the only way to respect your decision. There are moments that I do miss you, however, I choose not to act as you are happy now. You and I both needed to grow and experience everything this world had to offer. It’s ok to face this world as an adult without each other. I hope that you can find happiness even if it’s not with me. I pray for your wellbeing as well as your family’s wellbeing. I worry about them as my I would my own (something you might not be is unaware of). You are a good person L, someone deserving of love. Please take care of yourself and remember just how fragile your body can be. Feelings are still very raw right now but know that you will always be able to reach me when you if need. I wouldn’t trade our time together for the world. In your absence, I was able to reflect and address my own faults and weaknesses. Let’s grow to be we can be; we owe it to ourselves. We will do great things in our respective field of study and perhaps we can rekindle later on as adults. I’m working hard to wrap up this semester and looking forward to my graduation. I will be sad knowing that you will not be in my life as I enter graduate school but I’ve come to terms with it. Don’t worry too much about me L, I will persevere in the end. I trust that this universe will guide me towards happiness as it will for you. Thank you, L, for everything that you have done. I am so proud and happy to be the person typing this letter to you. I wish you all the happiness that the world has to offer, you truly deserve it. Farewell my fragile lily flower for your chapter in my book has come to it’s beautiful end.
– With eternal love and
gratitude, L