Hey there.
Life is really different without you in it. When you are used to being with someone, having conversations with them, telling them you love them every single day, it’s hard to, out of nowhere, just stop all contact with that someone. It’s even hard when this someone has done something to hurt you, like you have to me. I’d like to say that I am over it, I really wish that I was but that just isn’t the case. Even after almost a whole year I still miss your smile, and your sweet voice, and your reassuring embrace, i miss it all, and i miss you. And yes, I know that I shouldn’t and I know that you don’t feel the same but i wonder if you ever regret it. Do you ever regret your decision? Do you miss me? Do you miss MY smile? MY voice? MY embrace? I wish that i knew. I wish that i could speak to you the way we used to. I still see you at school everyday, and i will next year, and the next until we graduate and who knows if i will care then. What i know is that i care now, i care a lot and im not sure that you do. You never show that you care and so why should i think that you do. That doesn’t change the fact that I miss you, and honestly i really want you back. If you were able to show me that you have changed, to show me that you still care about me, that you feel you have made a mistake, that you wish you could take it all back, and that you want me too, well i wouldn’t have words to describe that happiness. But i know that it will never happen. So with that i wish you well. Have a good life, i hope you find someone, someone good who cares about you and who you can care about in return. Don’t mess things up with her. Be a good man. Be better. Treat her right (always!) and good luck.