You were my first and only boyfriend. We met at work, I knew it was a risk but I still took it. The first time you broke up with me hurt a week later you say you “made a mistake” so I thought I’d give it another chance. I stood by you during what was probably the hardest time in your life at that moment, being in the hospital and you repaid me by cheating on me with another coworker. Even though I left you that time I still was there for you to help you find help for your inner demons. I was always there for you. I always loved you even though I tried so hard not to. You got yourself back on the right path and snuck your way back into my life. You’ll never know the inner battle I faced between my head and my heart, telling me not to let you back in. But the fact that I still loved you even though you never treated me right, won. I let you back in and gave you another chance because you proved to me you were a better person. The next few months were some of the best times I’ve ever had. And then you left me again. You will never understand how you made my biggest fears become my reality. It has been just over two months separated now but the fact that we still work together means we have to be in each others lives. Its easy for me to put on a brave face at work and act happy but as soon as I get home it’s lonely, depressed, sadness, anger and tears. I cry all of the time because I cannot get you out of my mind. I even constantly have dreams with you in them. You’ll never know the degree to which you have hurt me. You have let me go three times now and I will never give you a fourth chance to break my heart. I wish you could feel what I feel, think what I think, so you’d know the pain it is to give everything you have but still be left behind. But you are lucky you don’t have to feel that and hopefully you never will. I will probably always love you but I will never let you know that. I wish I could delete you out of my life, but instead I get to see you everyday at work. Moral of my story is, don’t ever date a coworker.