This is really hard for me believe me, and if you already know what I am going to say and you don’t want to keep reading, feel free to stop now. Christian, I love you and I hope you know that. I have never wanted to hurt you in any way, and I hope there are no hard feelings between the two of us. I have been stressing about this for a while. There Is no reason for you to not hate me, but chris I love you just not in the way that I used to. I don’t want to break your heart again, but that is what I have to do. I have prayed about it and haven’t ever gotten an answer. I don’t want to keep dragging you along as a second choice just in case something doesn’t work out with someone else. There I someone else. His name is Nate. I went to high school with him, he just got back from his mission a few weeks ago and we really have hit it off. He’s in New York right now doing summer sales with his brother and we have just been texting, but he really is a great guy. I guess long distance is my thing…. I have no clue if it is going to work out but I really don’t want to keep you around just in case. I know a lot of people don’t dear john their missionaries until they know that they have someone else, but that is not something I want to do, I don’t want you to be my last resort. I love you. I don’t know if this is the right decision but it is what I am doing. Thanks for all the amazing memories, some good, some bad, I wouldn’t change a single one, but you have helped me find myself, I really appreciate it thank you. I hope we can still be friends. If you have any questions, please ask me!!! I’m sorry!!