Hello C. I’d like to start out by saying I’m sorry for where you are in your life. I’m sorry that I wasn’t enough to save you from the life that you chose. I wish I could have been and you wouldn’t be in what you are now. I should have stuck by your side but who could pause their life for 5 years and just wait. I’m sorry I moved on and had a family and got married. I would give anything back to leave it all behind and start fresh with you sometimes. I love my kids though and they have been worth this mess up in our life.

I was with you for 4 years and nothing changed. I was a fool to think it would and every time I saw you again you promised me it’s going to be different and I was so in love with you that I didn’t want to believe anything else. We spent a total of 6 years together then you decided the life path you wanted and left me for 5 years and yes there was no choice but look where you are now. You are stronger and able to get through this. I know I reached out to you a couple of time and we’ve talked and this last week has been amazing but I can’t do it anymore. I have my kids. You are in no position to raise 2 little ones with everything you have to deal with now, on your road to recovery. You have a curfew and you hide me from your family.

I just want to let you know I’m not sure what will happen in a year or years but I’m starting my life fresh with my kids. If you want to be apart of it let me know because I love you to dang much to just let go of you. You were my first live and it is you I choose it will always be you. I love you more and more everyday even if we do not talk just come back to me and we will work this out together. I’m here for you through everything no matter what…even if you don’t want to come back if something is eating you up or you think you’ll start your old life run to me and I will be here. I love you my sweet bebe no matter what happens I’m here.