I’m sorry. I can’t say it enough, i’m sorry. 
I loved you and I still do and I will always love you, you were my first true love and I blew it. 
I thought I would be ready, I thought I would be over myself but here we are. 
I’m sorry I couldn’t fight it any longer, I couldn’t hurt you, not now and not ever. 
I don’t know how to feel for others the way others do, and you were such an amazing guy and I couldn’t keep pretending anymore and i’m sorry. 
I wish I was different maybe this whole thing could have lasted longer but I just couldn’t keep going on knowing that I wasn’t worthy of being yours. i’m sorry. 
I wish you the best and I hope you find a girl who can be better and can give you her all. 
I love you.