A letter to B… 

Hey, we haven’t talked since February when you told me you still liked me and I agreed and then not even a week later you told me you didn’t and had moved on. Can you please explain that? How you like someone for 4 years and then it’s just gone in a week. I am not writing this to send to you or anything, this is strictly for me. I understand that we didn’t end on good terms but I just need to tell you some things…. I loved you from the bottom of my heart to and you broke that not once but twice, and somehow I still found somewhere in my broken heart to love you.

I can not put into words how lost I am still… Some days I just don’t want to get out of bed because it hurts so much. When I left Marysville you had a girlfriend and I  was so happy that you could be happy again. But it hurt so bad to see you had moved on so quick like I was just a piece of dust you picked up and threw away. But  I still pretended i didn’t care  because I new if I keep saying that you would come back I would be waiting for my whole life, it was so hard in high school because I would see couples holding hands and just wish that’s what we had and remember us fighting about which hand you got to hold and how you would walk me to class each day and how you were late to 3rd period because of me.  

In no way am I doing this to get back at you. I just have been missing you lately and I can’t explain why and it sucks. I read a quote once that says it is easy to say you don’t care and love someone until you have to look them in the eye and say it. I know we will see each other at basketball, football, baseball, etc  games.  I just hope you’re happy/ not in pain anymore. I hope you know I am trying my best to do better and move on. Hope your happy. -K