Hello, Babi. Uhm. I’m sorry. I feel like I failed the dreams we made, the dreams we wanted for us. I’m sorry I gave up. I’m sorry I had to choose myself this time. I’m sorry. I was just tired.

I wish I was better. I wish I could still feel your arms around me. I wish I could still run to you with tears streaming down my face. I wish I just waited for you. I wish I had more patience. I wish I just waited for you to come home.

There are so many wishes… and what ifs. I feel like I’m drowning in my thoughts. I feel like I can’t fight it anymore… but I have to. I chose this for myself. I wanted to be free. But why do I feel homeless?

God, I feel crazy and tired.

I wanna go home.

Always yours,

Sunflower