You told me we were soul mates and I believed you. You made me feel like I could trust you with my entire life, tell you everything and build a life together. I thought we would get married and build our careers together. I don’t know why you would choose to lose your best friend for something you are fantasizing about.

I wish you could love me like I love you. I wish I didn’t depend on you as much as I did. I wish my loyalty wasn’t always taken for granted. I love you like I’ve never loved anyone else and that terrifies me. I hope you find what you’re looking for, I hope you find peace with yourself, and not to look for that in someone else all the time. I hate you for doing this to me, but I have to admit that I don’t think I could ever stop loving you.