Joker, 

I had a perfect day with my fiancé and then a TV series made me think of you, and not him. What does that even mean?

So in this series, a guy and girl write to each other in a notebook and then exchange it. Sort of You’ve Got Mail vibe, but in today’s world, with internet and all. They dare each other to improve themselves by going out of their comfort zones and actually end up becoming better. They are teenagers, and the innocence of their relationship and the freshness in their story is arguably the strongest feature of the series.

There comes a scene when they finally meet each other in person and try to see if they really match with the images they have in their mind. Watching this scene, made me think of you. But why?

I had just had a perfect day with this imperfectly perfect person whom I am definitely falling for. Then why do I still think about you, when I know you are just not possible. 

Maybe it’s because he is the reality, but you are a fantasy. Something I never tried, so I never know if it could go wrong. To my mind, the fantasy will always remain perfect. 

Maybe it’s simply habitual. We used to talk so much about TV content. Maybe that’s why every series, every movie somehow reminds me of you? Because we have basically talked about everything. Haven’t we?

I don’t know what’s the reason. But I know I want to stop thinking about you every time like this. This can’t be healthy, right?

I hope things are better in the future, for all of us.

-Alpha