Hey. I’m too much of a pussy to say this to you, ever, and i know that it won’t change anything. You never believed in holding grudges, saying it’s pointless to dwell on shit from the past. it’s almost like you feel like you can get away with anything because it already happened and there’s “no use making a big deal outta it.” well fuck you.

You hurt me so fucking much, you and her. and the way you excused yourself, blaming your mental health? and saying she pressured you? look, they’re valid reasons. but not a solid alibi to rid yourself of any responsibility. first of all, since when did you have a right to cheat (though you never considered it as that, you and your controversial opinions smh. maybe keep em to yourself next time, yeah?) just cause you were depressed? depressed because of me? you were hurt because i was angry that you hurt me?

Fuck. off. with that shit. and she never pressured you; and no, i’m not victim blaming. you weren’t a fucking victim. i saw those texts, you told me you both got off to it, only for you to back track and say that you didn’t?  i’m not fucking stupid. you both consented to it, and you could’ve stopped at any time, sexting her.

For anyone confused, this prick fucking sexted the same girl he planned to leave me for, which i was ready for him to do, only for him to stay with me out of his own choice but continues to cheat. did she pressure you? coerce you? bribe you? force you? raped you? please, you were both sending dirty voice memos, don’t act all innocent.

One thing i regret was to let you walk all over me. and also say i cheated on you, because i never did. Just wanted to hurt you as much as you hurt me, but you didn’t care either. To you, it was normal.

I fucking hate you. you don’t see me using my mental health (which you never gave a shit about) as an excuse to cheat, no? so why the fuck can’t you do the same and at least treated me with enough decency to respect me as your partner. glad it’s over. i hate you so fucking much.