Hi H, you called me two days ago asking me if I still have one of your shirts, why the hell would I have it? you always left with your damn shirt on! it doesn’t make sense to me why you keep asking me this. I already told you over email that I don’t have anything of yours anymore. It makes me feel like shit. I asked you how you are and you told me your friend died and how it happened and what you’re doing now, and then you said “I don’t want to talk about it”. Did I make you talk about it? No. You didn’t even have to bring it up if you didn’t wanna talk about it. Anyways, I asked at the end if the only reason you called was because of the shirt and you said yes. My heart actually hurt because you didn’t give a shit about what I’ve been upto or how heartbroken I’ve been. It’s like the second your feelings for me went away, your humanity and kindness went away too. Because I remember back when you cried or were sad about something, I put you first and I took care of you. But not for me I guess. 

I also saw on tiktok that you started following your exes again. Are you kidding me?? Did I not mean anything?? Even if you were fucking them, why the heck did you act like I was gonna be the only person you ever loved in your entire life just to randomly block me everywhere after a big fight. Unfuckingbelievable. 

I was looking through pictures today and I saw one of you and realized that I just liked that you were nice to me and treated me like a human being. Until you didn’t. I never liked you for who you were I just liked the way you “loved me” so gently. Which now that I think about, wasn’t even all that pure or wholesome. Because when  I didn’t care about you, you were obsessed with me and my life and my feelings. But the seCoke I opened up my heart for liking someone I wasn’t even attracted to in the first place, you literally didn’t even talk to me properly and randomly ghosted me. One of those days when I was obsessively texting you, I called you one night crying because I had a severe ptsd episode after watching a horrible movie and even left a voicemail. I didn’t even get a single call asking if I was okay. And when I felt suicidal, you said you were too busy for me. Is this what you think people that love each other do? Absolutely ignore each others well beings??

Lemme guess, when you ghosted me, you had another girl talking to you. Shocker. Should’ve expected this lol. How could I not???? 

Anyways, even though it hurts being alone, it’s better than being with a man like you. 

I hope to one day find a man with everything I am looking for and more who loves me for who I am and never has the heart for any other woman. I will find that person and I won’t be settling until I do. 

Have a nice life H. You’re never going to get me back ever again. I will try my hardest to forget you and our memories. And I will make new ones that are happier to replace old ones.