This is for every girl I hurt by being too attached.

2017 was dark after being diagnosed with Type 1 Diabetes and intrusive OCD my life spiralled because of it I failed A levels, hobbies lost all enjoyment and briefly considered suicide, because of which I guess I was looking for something or rather someone to fill my heart, a guardian angel if you want to think of it, and that person was you Sofia. My broken heart, longing for something to fill and mend it, latched onto you. Not only were you the most beautiful girl in school but you seemed largely free of any angst us zoomers carry in abundant supply.

The following year was filled with me unable to muster up the courage to talk to you out of fear you wouldn’t be interested, which my heart couldn’t bear back then, until I did and you seemingly responded well. Then being me, I ruined it by being to eager to talk. I know what happened, despite your best intentions not to hurt me, and while I was sad and angry for a long time, you did nothing wrong

Ever since that day, over half a decade ago, when I found out how you felt, my life has not improved. This maybe more for me, but I need this if I ever am to mend my wounds from 2017.

I’m sorry for putting you off by being over eager. While what you did hurt me, without you being there I would have never overcame my fear of Dogs, Met my doggie best friend Ruby, and may not have kept going at the worst time in my life. You inadvertently saved me and thank you for that. 

Should you ever see this thank you for saving me. I’m sorry that I couldn’t be who I needed to be for you and I hope your life is a pleasant one. 

A friend once told me you were looking for a man at the time, I know you’ll find it one day and hope he could’ve everything I couldn’t back when.

Thank You Sofia

Signed you know who