Hi,
Wow. I can’t believe it’s already been nearly 5 months. I know that I broke up with you and that should mean I’m totally okay. I was okay for awhile directly after the break up. I felt free for the first time in 3 years, but it didn’t last. I thought I had moved on, but now I’m not so sure. You were the person I built my life on. My friends and family don’t understand why we aren’t together anymore, no matter how much I explain, and they’re starting to make me not understand why we aren’t together. You told me you’re seeing someone new. I want so badly to be happy for you. She sounds nice. You seem happy, and I want to tell you I am happy for you. I have told you that, but it isn’t true. I’m miserable and I hate myself for being so upset at your joy. So there it is. The truth I refuse to say aloud. I suppose that’s what letters are for. Good luck. Wish me luck. I think I’m going to need it.