Dear K!

I wish I could tell you how much i hate you.. how much i hate you because i love you. You hurt me bad this time.. it’s not like every other time where we get into a fight and than the next day everything is okay, because here i am crying and it’s 3 am, and we haven’t talked all day. Even if we would, i don’t think id know what to say anyways. You were never really mine, i know that. But you’ve liked me for quite some time now and the fact that you still don’t know what you want hurts me more then anything.

I was in a relationship when you started falling for me, and when things predictably shattered you were the one who was there to pick up the broken pieces of my heart, because you are the best friend a person could want for them self. I just wish you knew what you wanted, i wish you could make up that mind of yours, well in a way you did.. you gave up because things weren’t simple, because we not everything just fell into your lap, and it made things complicated. How could you give up, just like that. Makes me wonder if you ever even cared to be honest..its sad because  you make me happiest and saddest person alive, and I wish you weren’t in control of my feelings, and emotions. i wish i was. I hope you look back on all of this one day, and regret the decision you made.