Dear Nathan, I just want to say I’m sorry for hurting you with my impulsive actions and poor attitude, I truly cared for you and you have taught me a lot, it is hard for me to let it all go and move on but I have done just that, I do not lump you in a category of men that have hurt me, and I deeply regret treating you as if you were there to harm me, I cannot take it back and I cannot change the past, so many things remind me of you, and so many memories I have if how I acted poorly have helped drive me to change everyday, I am sorry I became so drunk with rage, it wasn’t your fault I was the same with everyone when I came back home. I have since been in reform and have traced back the root cause of my bitterness in hopes of becoming a better woman for another man someday, im sorry I lashed out at you on pinger that day, I was just frustrated at idiotic things. I’m not all better and I’m not all perfect I’m young and I have learning to do but I’m glad I met you and I’m glad you jump started the healing process for me, I wish you the best in finding your wife and raising a family with her …thank you.