To my ex:
Thank you. Thank you for breaking my heart. Thank you for helping me understand that I deserve better. That trust is earned, and when it’s broken, it’s hard to get back. Thank you for preventing me from making the mistake of trying to spend the rest of my life with you.
Love is a two-way street and I gave way more than I got. I deserve to be loved as much as I loved you and to be treated the way I treated you. Looking back, you made me feel like nothing more than a distraction.
I don’t know what your plan is now. I don’t know if you’re seeing someone else or have already been seeing someone and that’s why you broke up with me. But I know that you won’t find someone else who will treat you the way I did. You’ll probably find a guy that’s better looking and with a better physique. But you won’t find a guy who cared for you as much as I did and that will put you ahead of himself every step of the way like I did.
Maybe it’s my fault that I did those things and constantly put you first, but that’s just how I am. When I love and care about someone, I put them before me. Because that’s what love is, to me.
I won’t sit here and pretend like I want the best for you. I’m not wishing you ill will, but I do hope that you fall in love with somebody like I did with you, and I hope that you have to go through this same heartbreak.
I think one day you’ll realize you made a mistake and realize that I was a really good boyfriend. But it’s too late. As much as I would actually love to get back together with you, I know that I can’t. Because you have given me the chance to recognize that you weren’t a good girlfriend and that I deserve so much more.
So thank you.
3 Comments
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If you’re my ex, Nick…
I would want to say to you, I think we’ve both acted unfairly at times. I think we both got caught up, but it was never in a web of lies.. I was always faithful to you and continue to be.. I think we both fell in love in the capacities that we could. I’m sorry you feel this way about the past, and if disguising what we had as a bad thing helps you move on, I understand. I’ve done the same thing too.
Who knows, maybe you’re not the same Nick. I guess my take-home message would be – we do what we can to find our own peace to protect ourselves, even rewriting history in our minds. -
Assuming your name is Sam, you’re not my ex. My ex’s name started with a K. I hope your breakup wasn’t as bad as mine, and truly I hope that you can get back with your Nick. I just know that for me, my ex was my first true love, but at the same was the biggest mistake I’ve made.
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Hey, thanks for replying! I know it’ll take time to heal, but you will too. And you’ll take away whatever lessons you can from it and come out a stronger person. I kinda figured it wasn’t my Nick – he’s done a good job of making a perfectly clean break. Even though I feel like I have it tough with my yo-yo’ing of emotions, I’m doing better too.. bit by bit. Best wishes to you!
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