When you ended it with me, not only did you shatter my heart, but you ruined me. Tell me, what was I supposed to do when I was sitting in the car with my dad and our song came on the radio and I fucking broke down? How was I supposed to ever look into someone’s hazel eyes again? No matter how hard I tried, every single thing I encountered brought me back to you. I couldn’t pass your favorite store without feeling a heaviness in my chest. I couldn’t stop thinking about all of our plans together. When you ended it with me, I promised myself I wouldn’t hate you. But that changed when you were fucking laughing and having a good time with another girl not even 24 hours after we broke up. You said you wouldn’t let me go without a fight. You said I was yours for a long time. How come I was the only one fighting to stay with you? You were ready to give up, as I begged you to stay. No, I give myself permission to hate you. You destroyed everything for me. You lost the girl who loved you more than anyone. I never thought I’d be able to say it, but I am so happy we aren’t together anymore. Because you claimed you loved me, but you barely showed it. You lured me in with the sweetest of words, but never backed them up. I realize now it was your loss, because I loved you selflessly and finding another love like mine won’t be easy.
What I’ll never tell you