If we are actually to be the friends we can be, then this needs to be out there and it also needs to remain a secret.

We had our final talks, we tried and failed to make it work. However if you had just given me some of your time, where we could be a couple and enjoy life together. I would’ve given you EVERYTHING.

I would’ve cut contact with everyone except my closest family. I would’ve been the man you needed. I would’ve doted after you, always. Because you meant that much to me.

But you didn’t try hard enough and when you did it failed badly.

I accepted who you were a long time ago. I just wanted to be loved, the way I NEEDED to be loved. Just like you needed me to be serious, YOUR way.

I’ll always be there for you. But the love is dying.