I couldn’t continue to shine your ego for you. You were so into you, there was no room for anyone else, and to add the criminal element into it, you were a gigantic waste of my time. I look at you now and think …what the hell was I doing?? I couldn’t make you happy, and eventually stopped trying. I couldn’t trust you. I couldn’t give all of myself to support your grandiose delusions.  My kids saw the physical abuse I suffered at your hands, they lost their Mom temporarily and I blame this on both of us, but mainly you. I can’t wish you well… I won’t.

I wish you to suffer all the pain you caused me and more. I used to beg for your affections. If you didn’t feel affectionate towards me, then why did you stay for so long? I had a great sex life before and after you so the problem I see was… you! I paid for loving you, a tear for every moment you were in  my life,  but my bill is paid in full now. I got on with my life. You were the second biggest mistake I ever made. (The first being my former spouse.)  After almost 19 years, my feelings haven’t changed. I resent and despise the very thought of you. I am a stronger woman now… you wouldn’t even want me… because you could no longer play on my emotions to control me. Good riddance a**hole!