Dear DKT,

I miss you, DKT… I really miss you. I miss our togetherness. I want to go back to our past, but I know I can’t. I still remember the way you smile and your eyes… OMG! I still remember it clearly. You were a cheerful and kind man, but now I make you upset. I can’t stand when you cry because I didn’t want to stay, because I choose him. I blame myself for each tear that fell from your eyes. I am really sorry.

I can’t stand the way you try to keep smiling when I leave you at the bus. I can’t stand to hold my tears. I knew you were very sad and you didn’t want to see my face. You didn’t want me to see it. I knew you were very hurt when you kissed me for the last time. From deep inside, I feel so guilty. I never saw you sad like this… you were a cheerful man! I’m sorry for the tears…

I really want to fix it. But I was tired waiting for your seriousness. You believed in me but you didn’t care about me when I was your girl. We passed many special times and you forgot your promises. We planned many things but we never made any of them happen.

And now, after we broke up, you start to care. It’s making me confused. You changed. I feel like I found the old you 5 years ago. The man who make me fell in love so deeply. If only I didn’t have him now, I would run back to you. Leave this town but I can’t. He is very kind and fragile. He cares about me. He makes an effort in this relationship. I don’t want to see another disappointment in the eyes of a man anymore.

Please, I don’t know what to do now. I still love you but I don’t want to hurt you or hurt anymore.