I’m afraid you were “the one.” You meant so much to me and left me feeling like some small town attachment you just had to cut before you left for better things. I know that you loved me and some part of me is always going to love you, as much as I try to smother that out. I’m with someone else, but I fell out of love fast. I do love him, but I’m not in love with him. I’m just so afraid I’m not going to find someone great for me and have to settle. I really wish I could stop dreaming about you and trying to get you back. It makes me feel like an awful person. I must be exaggerating how great we were in my head. I’m just so afraid of being alone that I don’t want to let him go, though that isn’t fair to him at all.
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i hope, whoever you are, you find that space where being alone feels beautiful for you, i hope that you can learn or re-learn what it feels to be self reliant on your own emotion and live an amazing life in its value. you are right. its not fair on your new guy, he deserves someone who will love him with every thing that they have, not just with fear. i pray you find your way, and i sympathize with your feelings as i know them well..
if you want change, you must be prepared to be uncomfortable..
best of luck
r
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