Hey again,

I don’t really know where to begin writing this email so I’m just going to write it all down and hope it makes sense. I have been sitting here re-watching Party Down with ***** thinking about how fucked up it is how much it bothers me for reminding me of you. I don’t know why but I just need to put it out there to have some closure on everything that we were, especially seeing how things were left off. I wanted to start by saying that what happened on EE completely shocked me. I tried my best to avoid the situation, and believe me I did not want that, but I guess shit just happened. I guess one of the reasons I need closure is because I did not have my phone for the most part when we were texting afterwards and then the conversation was deleted so I basically don’t even know what was said.

I can’t get over this 100% knowing that the last conversation with a person who has had such a big impact on my life at one time was so terrible and not even me. My problem is that I am still angry with you for a lot of things, and I just don’t know how to stop thinking about it and get over it. What happened with Courtney fucked me up hard and I haven’t been able to forget it. I’ve tried completely writing you out of my life, ignoring you, being your friend, being your hook up buddy, and being your girlfriend and nothing seems to work, so I guess the next option is to forgive and just let go.

I know that I have done a lot of things in my past that you won’t be able to forget, I can only hope that you can forgive me as I am forgiving you. I am sorry for the way our relationship went, and at another point in life I bet we could have been great. I know a lot of hurtful words have been exchanged between us, but I’m ready to just let it all go and give up the anger that I’ve been holding onto. It seems like the only option in getting over you. I care about you, and I hope that your life is as wonderful as I always thought it could be. No matter what has happened in the past I can’t ignore the good things that it had brought me. I will always be grateful for that. You don’t have to respond to this email if you don’t want to, but I just needed to send it. Annnnd Just like I didn’t know how to start this email, I don’t really know how to end it either but if you ever need me I am only a phone call away.

All my best,

HeartFelt