Replacement

I hope you have succeeded in finding our replacements. I hope your happy that you would rather replace us then just put some time into our relationship. That hurt s so bad you just fucked my whole world up. I allowed you to turn my whole world upside down and you just ran off and not only replaced me but my son also. Ive never allowed anyone that close to me to hurt me like you did and ill probably never let anyone that close again. Words cannot describe the pain i feel inside, the hurt that never goes away the emptiness that has taken over me.

I really thought that we were meant to be together but now i see that i was just a fool. You reeled me in with sweet valentines days, dress shirts, and romance in the beginning and in the end you were running away with no interest let alone romance in sight. You have driven me crazy and made me feel like i am asking to much. I guess i was asking for more than you were willing to give me. Then you just go out and pop up with replacements and try to keep me hooked or maybe you realized what you said that you couldn’t replace the feelings. But then your reply to my long message was just as before no clear meaning or reaction in as little words as possible.

It has been almost 4 months since you moved out but only week 3 of no contact (no talking). It has been hard not speaking to you after almost 2 1/2 years of being parts of each others lives. I miss the hell out of the old you. The one who cared was sweet and loved to cuddle and loved me not this new man who seems to be a stranger and appeared this last year who had no interest in me at all and purposly hurt me in every way. So i hope your replacements were worth every precious moment you have shared with them and they make you happy because apparently we didnt. Im just happy my son doesnt know that the man he calls his best friend and viewed as the closest thing he had to a dad has replaced him.

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