Dear Matt,

Our whole involvement with each other was strange, sudden and swift. I really thought I could let myself fall for you and as all the decisions about dating, being in the relationship etc were your idea, I was absolutely crushed and so confused when you ended it. It took a while but I picked myself up and moved on with life.

And then, a year later, you contact me. With all your lovely words and your fun conversations and how much I enjoy your company. You chose to manipulate me while I was in a vulnerable situation in my current relationship. Old feelings were stirred up I think due to the way we ended the first time and the fact that I never really had closure. We were both in the wrong here, emotionally I was cheating with you and you were encouraging me to. And then you do the same thing you did when we were together! Nobody has confused me more than you have.

You have a really strange hold on me and as much as I am happy with present boyfriend, part of me misses you still. I have to let you go again. I wish we had worked out, we could have had such a fantastic relationship. But we never managed to be on the same page and obviously it wasn’t meant to be. Wrong places and wrong times. I’m rambling but I just have to get this out.

E.