Dear Neil, I’m writing this as talking to you today was so hard. Hearing you sound so happy and in love made me feel like shite. You both have hurt me so much, it feels like my head is a pressure cooker about to explode. However I realise I need to forgive you both to move on for the sake of our two beautiful children. I don’t think anyone can comprehend how I’m feeling, you were my first boyfriend and we were together for 18 years. You always said it would be us and the kids forever so to get together with my friend of 7 years hurt like hell.

I have had to move jobs as I worked with her, change my car as I had your heap of crap I didn’t want anymore and have lost friends in the process after being told numerous times to get over it! You don’t see the kids unless your mother or instigate a meeting and that Is noted by the kids. I hate her with a vengeance and how I get over that I do not know, but I will and when I finally go into a relationship I will be cleansed from all this bitterness I feel.