I don’t know what I did. but i’m worried. i’m worried about you, i’m worried about us & i’m worried about me. because i’m having mixed emotions. I wish I knew what I did wrong. you won’t talk to me at all, or even look at me in person. is it because there is someone else? or you just don’t want to be with me. I like you, I really do. & I want to be with you.

I just want to know what’s going on. i’m sorry for what I did. I don’t know what I did do. but, I love you with all of my heart. you’re perfect to me. too sweet for me to handle. everything about you just comes together so perfectly to make you. your looks are a bonus to me. i’m willing to do anything to keep us together. I don’t want to be without you. I know I pushed you away. & I hate myself for doing that. just understand that you’re very special to me.

I can’t believe it’s almost been a month. i’ve built up so many feelings for you. & now it feels like it’s nothing because you haven’t talked to me. I just want to know what’s going on with you & us. please know that I miss you being here. I miss the happiness you used to give me. & I miss my babygirl. my one & only. someone asked me today if we were still together. I had to say ”idk” because I don’t know what’s with us. I know that there is a ”us” somewhere. we just have to find it in our hearts.

we’re just kids. brought together for a reason. we’re young & just want to fall in love until maturity hits. so just let it happen. we have nothing to lose now, because we came this far. I miss you & I miss us. the past few days have been sad feelings for me. i’m confused, lost, & hurt from all of this. I don’t want to fight with you anymore. because fighting just builds anger & brings things we say that we don’t really mean. I wish you was still here. my mind says that I could get over you quick. but really, no matter how hard I try.

I wouldn’t be able to. I see you 2-3 times everyday. & I can’t stop myself from looking at how beautiful you are in person. the way your hair is, your eyes, your cheeks, your one dimple, & your smile. is everything that makes me happy. I wouldn’t be able to get over you because I would see all of the memories that we had, not just physically you. i’d feel emotions. emotions that I wouldn’t want if we ever be apart. you’re special to me. i’ve made a place for you in my heart where you can stay if we both fade away.

I really could sit here all day & write about what I love about you & I still wouldn’t cover it all. your eyes are my favorite thing I could get lost in. people say that love in movies doesn’t happen. but I know that we could make a better story anyway. I hate having to write this over facebook than on paper. but I don’t know what to expect when I walk to you. I have a fear of being rejected. & being rejected from you would be horrible. just know that I love you, & i’m waiting on you.