Hey, you probably don’t want to hear from me but I needed to make things right. I didn’t want to text you or do any of the media stuff because then i’m just worried about when you might just read it and I’ll just panic. In this case I probably know shes right next to you reading this and if she is, hi, I love the ring congratulations you two. I’m very happy for the both of you.

I genuinely want to apologize for the way I acted for getting in between for putting my noise where it didn’t belong clearly you love her and you kept me around because, well we both know why we stuck around each other. We were afraid you loved me since middle school it took me the end of junior year to realize I loved you and to top it off I was shy to show it to you and she came along and showed you the love you deserved. I appreciate that, if she is reading this. I really hope you take care of him.

I know I been a terrible person to you but I let jealous get the best of me, you know I never was the jealous type until you came along and i was afraid to lose you. I understand now you can love two people at once and although I hated to hear that from people I really want the best for you I want you to be happy. I’m not going to lie I do miss you. In all do respect I miss you as my friend my best friend the person who pushed me to keep running when I just wanted to give up. The other day I had a dream of the both of you your dad was driving your mom was in the passenger seat and she in the back you in the middle and you guys came and pick me up.

I got in and you explained how you bought her something I was like okay? You were like a ring I was like how cute a promise ring? And she pulled out her and and showed me and said no a ring we are getting married I was in shocked I said congratulations i’m happy for you guys i’m happy for you and I was lying then we went to this dessert and I woke up. Seriously that dream wasn’t all a lie I was unhappy at first I hated that she won. I hated that she got what we had planned for. That everything I did, everything I fought for, all the time and effort was for nothing, but then I realized that I was committed and that anything I set my mind to I can accomplish.

I know it sounds stupid because, I didn’t win I didn’t get you at the end of the day, but you see I thought i lost to. The day of prom this lady read my cards and she asked me was I fighting for something I said yes, and she asked me if I think I won or lost, I told her I lost. She told me no you won. I know it may feel as you lost but you won. You see that right there that gave me the power to finally forgive you, her, and myself. Your happy. It may be a little late now but, I won’t try to destroy your happiness you deserve it as much as she does. I was a poor sport, but I was just so used to you that I didn’t want my love to go down the drain I didn’t want to give up on someone I loved I wanted to fight for you, but I didn’t give up I just let you be and I learned to move on. The only thing I do ask is for our friendship back. We’ve done it before put our differences aside and went to being best friends or friends. That’s all I ask for. Is to be apart of your life and you apart of mine. I’m seriously going to miss you. Have a nice life together and take care.