Dear, You.

Gosh, where do I even start.. Umm, well I miss you. A lot. I know you’re with her and you’ve forgotten about me and everything. I understand. You’ve done it a million times. But this time it’s different.. This time it’s serious and now I’m gone for good. I hope you’re happy with your decision because you completely lost me. I ain’t comin back no more. I’m not just gonna chase you around because I love you so damn much. I’m just gonna cry every night and look at our old messages and pictures.

While you go to her house and cuddle with her in the bed and hold her all night long. I guess you could see how I feel now. I’m lost. I don’t even know why I’m typing this.. I guess I just want to see what I could say to you… If I would. We’ve been off and on for almost 2 years now and you took something of mine that was special to me and now I can’t get it back… I was looking at our old messages yesterday and seen where you said “I promise I will never leave you and just forget about you. I love you *****. You mean the whole damn world to me.” I guess you lied. About all of it. You used me. You fucking used me and now this letter is gonna turn out cussing a lot because I’m really mad, so I’m gonna take a break and calm down. Brb…. Back. Well the main point is.. I miss you. I miss your stupid laugh, the way you smile after I kiss you in the cheek. I miss how you would always wear a hat to keep your hair from being poofy. I miss coming over and painting your nails and talking to your mom and petting your dogs. I miss coloring your hair. I miss your big Adams Apple. I miss your scars from where your dog bit you  on your cheek when you were little. I miss kissing that scar. I miss the feeling of you. I miss the feeling of you and me. The way I would feel when you’d hug me. I miss arguing with you. I miss crying over you when it something stupid and we weren’t broke up. I miss you. I fucking miss you and I’m fucking crying right now because I fucking miss you. It’s like I’m nothing to you now. But you’re everything to me and I don’t think you realize that.. Everything I do reminds me of you.. I can’t let go. I just can’t. I want you. I really want you. Cause I fucking love you. I love you..