To say I miss you is the understatement of the century.  There are no words in the human language to describe the emptiness and void I feel and no one will or can ever fill this but you. I ache so much inside for you, even passing on the bus makes my heart beat fast.

I guess now the shackles of my  abusive mother and poor childhood are now gone, I can see how I let it cloud my eyes and heart to a degree as I selfishly put my own fears and cowardice before what was important, you and the kids.  Now I can see in my loneliness just what I lost but also how blessed I was.  To have your love however briefly was a blessing only god could bestow, so maybe I don’t really believe in him and may question why I am alone on a night when I should be with you, but he did give me some time with the only person, the only woman i have loved or will love.

To quote Drake “ you left your mark on me”

I will love you until all the stars go out i am sorry mailing you but you dont know how much you really mean/meant to me.

since my counselling am much more, i don’t know, in tune with my romantic side. any way i just wanted you to know i’ll think of you always. i’ll never want anyone else but you dawn.

a poem i wrote sorry if its corny, sometimes corny is good if heartfelt.

I thought of you today,

but that is nothing new,

i thought about you yesterday,

and days before that too.

I think of you in my silence,

i often speak your name,

but all i have are memories and a picture in a frame.

your memory is a keepsake,

from which i’ll never part,

and though i don’t have you in my arms,

I have you in my heart.